Monday, May 22, 2006
*Sigh*
I've been feeling really homesick recently. I think Mother's Day did it. I miss my mom. I know things have been kinda tough on her lately and I hate that I couldn't be there. Talking on the phone just isn't enough sometimes. I miss my nephew who is now 9. I hate it that he's growing up without me, doing things that I want to be a part of but can't. My mom talks about his baseball games and it just about breaks my heart that I have never been able to go to a single one. I miss my neice who is now 4. She wasn't even born when I got married, but she does know her Uncle Buzz and Aunt Chrisi. The first thing she usually says is, "Are you gonna come see me in a little bit?", or something like that. Then I have to explain to her that I'm in Georgia. I know that she knows who I am because every time I talk to her on the phone she tells me to bring her Easter Egg Gum next time we come up. Last year they came up around Easter, and I gave her a little carton that had egg shaped gum in it. When they returned to Indiana, the gum was left behind by accident. Every time she talks to me she reminds me to bring it next time we come to visit. She asked me about it again yesterday. I bought some fresh gum that I told her I would send her in the mail. She too is growing up without me.
I don't regret the choice I made to move down here and marry my wonderful hubby. It was my choice and I'd do it again even if I knew how hard it would be. I guess I just wish I could have it all.
Chrisi Coffee Talk at 3:51 PM
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