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Thursday, April 06, 2006
I'm Here!
Ok, I know it is 5 days into April, but for the rest of the month I am going to post at least 4 times a week. I'm trying to set a reasonable goal. I feel like I need a goal so that I will actually post.
Lately I have really been struggling with my attitude. I am allowing people to influence my attitude in a very negative way. I have also been letting circumstances that are not to my liking do the same. To put it simply, I've been a spoiled brat. I pretty much don't like me very much lately. I don't mean that in a depressed, self pity, "nobody likes me, I'm such a horrible person, I want to die" sort of way but a "I don't want to be like this, let's do something to change this" sort of way. I know, I know, there are probably some out there that are thinking, "No way! That's just not possible!" I am so sorry to burst your bubble, but it's true. *Snicker*
Seriously I really am working on this. For those that don't know me, I am not a horrible person or anything, I just strive to be better. I want to be "Christ-like". I don't want to be better than this person or that, I want to be what God wants me to be. Right now I just don't think I am.
Lord help me to be the Woman you want me to be. To be the wife, step-mother, daughter, and friend you would have me to be. To be an influence, not influenced.
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